We Went To Gay Conversion Therapy Camp (Part 1/3)

We Went To Gay Conversion Therapy Camp (Part 1/3)

Look at the outside of this man Look at his physical appearance Look into this man’s heart Look into his soul Now look more deeply… I feel this emptiness inside me every time I look into the mirror The impulse I want to do is just punch that mirror because I can see my fucking parents in the background Just staring at me and doing nothing as I’ve gone through this my entire fucking life and I want to scream ‘What the fuck is your problem!?’ ‘Where were you?!’ ‘Why did you leave me here?!’ Conversion Therapy is a set of dangerous and totally discredited practices That attempt to change the sexual orientation or gender identity of a person They’re often practiced by licensed mental health profesionals also sometimes unlicensed counselors, religious leaders Sometimes just in church basements and they most often target kids under 18 and these people give them what they claim is the solution. What it actually does is it supports an industry that is profiting off of the harm and, sometimes, the death of kids. And to one degree or another, conversion therapy is happening in every state in the country. What is your greatest fear this weekend? Of letting people down, and myself What is your greatest fear this weekend? My greatest fear just not being present
and not being here doing what God wants me to do What is your greatest fear this weekend? My greatest fear is that I will leave
without having touched someone else’s life What is your greatest fear this weekend? My greatest fear this weekend is letting
you down Thank you. See the next man Everyone is heterosexual the idea that some people are naturally
homosexual or naturally gay is just a social construct so when you have an individual who has
same-sex attraction we see it as something went wrong developmentally and
we try to resolve the issue and put them them back on the path toward their natural
heterosexuality that’s the philosophy of it. My name is
Joseph Nicolosi, I’m a clinical psychologist. A licensed clinical
psychologist and I’m the founder of reparative therapy. The concepts and
principles of reparative therapy they’re something I have developed over
30 years and four books and many many articles Journey Into Manhood came into
existence based upon the reparative therapy model. So the basic principles of reparative
therapy were taken and turned into a weekend experience. We’re doing a 32 man circle so
that we have the appropriate sized space to work with for our rehearsals. So we need
more here, we got six we need eight Our organization People Can Change is there for the man who voluntarily wants to experience some diminishment in his
unwanted same-sex attraction and Journey Into Manhood is a weekend program that
we offered to help build that understanding and that opportunity for,
for men who want to choose that path we have no interest in telling people who
are happy being gay that they should change or that there’s anything wrong
with them or whatever that’s not our mission that’s not what we believe but
we do believe that men who are uncomfortable with their homosexuality
should have opportunities to understand it and try to diminish it to the extent
that that’s possible for them. Okay, now this is a rehearsal. Now we’re
going to start off working through the kinks of the process itself. Thank you so much men for you’re willing
to serve. I’d like all of you to put your hands in your lap. Put your feet flat on the floor. Feel the power of the Earth coming up into your body. Close your eyes.
Take a moment to breathe. Breath in your nose and out your mouth. Yeah the staff wear a pouch of magic
seeds so it represents Jack’s, the seeds that were planted in the,
Jack story, Jack and the Beanstalk and the potential for creativity and growth
and empowerment that the seeds represent. So once the Journey-ers go through the weekend, they receive this
as a token of their experience and interestingly, as an aside, in the Jack
and the Giant Slayer movie I was pleased to see that Jack carries
his magic seeds around his neck in a little pouch which was 10 years or more
after we started doing it it’s interesting. Music queue. Good. Stop. Go back
to the beginning Music queue. Perfect! Okay go. The story of Jack and the Amazing Bean Stalk (cheering and clapping) We use a fairy tale, a myth, the
Jack and the Bean Stalk story as a kind of a metaphor for every boys growth into
manhood. I’ll give you these seeds We borrowed some of the
interpretation of it from Michael Gurian’s book The Wonder of Boys he talks about and uses it as a
model of how this boy Jack is estranged from his mother a little bit as he goes
off and experiences his masculinity Look at it: a phallic symbol. So, the beanstalk is a big penis? He is challenged and faces… -Biggest, baddest, meanest -…a giant in which represents his shadow and that he finds gold which
represents the gold in him Mythisists call this a hero’s journey so every boys growth into manhood in
some ways is a hero’s journey as he battles the shadows and embraces his
gold -Next is basically the shadow B9 shadow guy -Some of the staff we break them into specific roles to help
to bring out the different aspects of a man roles that help men sort of look in the
mirror at their own life and understand themselves in a relationship to the world of masculinity. Ok so see yourself as
Jack. Go ahead and start. See yourself as Jack running from giants. Running from the shadow. Imagining pushing
through the wall through your wall of fear and shame. -So I did my first Journey
Into Manhood weekend back in 2007. It’s
probably the most impactful weekend I’ve ever went on in my entire life. I was never what our society calls gay
or homosexual or whatever we label we put on it I am simply a man anything I would
always considered myself a heterosexual man was just with a lot of issues. Let’s start with Jeddy since he knows
this process so you guys watch watch Jeddy as he models us. You want me to do it like I’m gonna do it? -Uh huh. Okay. I feel anger and I feel this emptiness inside me
every time I look into the mirror the the impulse I want to do is just punch that
here because I can see my fucking parents in the background just staring
at me and doing nothing as I’ve gone through this my entire
fucking life. And I want to scream ‘What the fuck is your problem?!’ ‘Where were you?!’ ‘Why did you leave me here?!’ The goal of the weekend Journey Into Manhood is to find where on that Journey a step was taken off. So that you can find your way back on to it I felt so empty when I tried to live the
lifestyle it didn’t feel right I wanted to be a
husband. I wanted to be a father and I wanted to be true to that and I wanted
to be true to God. For me personally what was missing was a father figure. -Someone’s gonna be standing out there
like someone’s gonna be standing out there and then it as soon as we get big
enough groups the camp will take them up here. -Really, and who you’ve got this all set up -Yeah. Beautiful, thank you. -Rich actually
staffed my weekend and that was my first time meeting him and I looked up to him
very much because he started this organization that’s helped over 2,000
men and I hold him very highly in my mind. I have a fear that I’m not
going to become like him somebody and that’s my goal. You know it’s, it’s the same thing as
when I see a father You know I want to be a father someday
so badly and I fear that that’s not going to happen it’s the same type of thing. -Like as if your body was a sandbag and
the stresses are like sand blowing out your fingers and your toes allow yourself to see this and to feel. -31 years ago I almost killed myself
over my same-sex attractions. So everything that happened in my life
prior to that; sexual abuse, physical abuse, being bullied half to death
living in fear every day of my life. I realized what I was facing, I put a name to it and I’m probably queer and homo You really are a queer, you really are a homo but I made the decision than that that wasn’t how I
wanted to live I wanted a wife, I wanted kids, I wanted
that I wanted a normal life and I set out to go make it happen. One of the things we deal with a lot
here is individual trauma that may have existed from bullying, to more overt
acts of sexual molestation or that kinds of thing. There’s certainly have a higher
percentage of men dealing with unwanted same-sex attraction who have been sexually molested that’s that seems clear. -Today I have a job I love, I have people I love that I work with, I
have a church I love I just love every minute of life and I
feel free, completely free to be the man that I want to be and the man that I
believe God created me to be. There are many associated features of
living a gay identity that is problematic. -See the tender age at
which homosexuals prefer their conquests lesbians, sadists, masochists, and other sex deviants First of all we go back to the
fundamentals we are physically anatomically designed
for the opposite sex when you look at gay sex, very simply the
parts don’t fit. Their relationships are more short-term, there’s more depression, there’s more anxiety there’s more self defeating,
self-destructive behaviors, alcohol abuse. Gay men smoke cigarettes more than straight men as a small example. There’s a segment of the the gay world that is very much into one
night stands and you know anonymous hookups and that kind of thing
and that’s easy to to find and easy to fall into. -Group sex, anonymous sex Pretty soon they’ve got, you know, a new partner, then this partner, then that partner that they’ve had a hundred then they’ve had two
hundred and that’s typical of the gay community. Many people who experiment in the gay world say ‘I don’t want this.
I want one wife, picket fence, 2.5 kids, period. And that’s their right. So you’re a married man. -Yes. Do you have children? -Yeah I have one son. And um is he heterosexual? -Can you imagine, no of
course he’s heterosexual. He’s married he’s a psychologist and he actually
works at this clinic. What would you said if he came to you and told you that he… -I would have said, ‘What did I do wrong?’

Antonio Breitenberg

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100 thoughts on “We Went To Gay Conversion Therapy Camp (Part 1/3)

  1. des n says:

    God that's so sad.

  2. Benramin Prarmin says:

    Do it again. But on acid.

  3. hannah josephine says:

    they’re all so gay-

  4. Justa Tranny says:


  5. Ight Boys says:


  6. Maxie S says:

    2:40 my mom said to me before and the fact that these people are saying it is terrifying

  7. Maxie S says:

    these people should not be psychologists

  8. Maxie S says:

    I think what some people need to realize is that not all conversion therapy is like this.

  9. joy Ezekiel says:

    So basically they're teaching men how to be men?!!!!

  10. Brutally Honest says:

    they can't even touch bisexuals. they'll confuse themselves

  11. karson ball says:

    But why? What did gay people do to any of these bIHnuch? (I swore in Klingon so, by definition, I am gay.)

  12. Enayet Bakhchi says:

    Gays go there juste for the theater 🤠

  13. Nick H says:

    “32 man circle” lmfaoooooo.

  14. SMat says:

    Blacked out windows and a group of gay people sounds like a great party, pass the poppers, Mary!

  15. triple clamp says:

    i- please tell me they do not have a anti gay week at camp cho yea

  16. Kenneth Shelby says:

    Any one think that this shit is messed up that they think everyone is heterosexual now we all are at first but as we grow it’s a knowing not a mistake or flaw this shit pisses me off 😡🤬

  17. Skyler Rose says:

    You don't need therapy just wasting your money

  18. Semetic says:

    Sooooooo a group of gay men doing theatre LOL

  19. Semetic says:

    5:11 nice 👍

  20. Blake Hill says:

    Jeddy is definitely gay

  21. Israël Âme says:

    Dr. Joseph is the gayest person in this documentary.

  22. Manuel Arturo Velasquez says:

    What would be better is to create therapy to homophobic people to make homosexual people be accepted in society and they could feel good being themselves.

  23. Sunflower God says:


  24. Grrr GRRR says:

    who else is here because Mike Pence might send us to these places 😂😂😂✌️

  25. yanni ammari says:

    Gay gay Go Away

  26. ValeX treme says:

    Do they know masculinity is a social construction and sexuality isn’t, damn

  27. izzyzle says:

    these men founded this to spend all their time with gay men cause they're gay. that's it

  28. Lily G says:

    The is literally a cult?!? You convert gays to "straights" then gather them again every year to help convert others??

  29. Ph3n0m says:

    Wtf does 2.5 kids even mean? 2 kids and a dog? 2 kids and a torso? Wut?

  30. Choyax Iceholocaust says:

    Too many hurt gay men in the comment section. Dude just let them be they are having fun.

  31. Gacha Cookie Alexis says:

    Sending a gay to a camp with even more gays. Conversion camp, wtf were u thinking 🤔

  32. Niko Robinson says:

    VICE you are so genius….I'm laughing so fucking hard

  33. Strxwberry says:

    Bitch this ain’t therapy this is abuse

  34. James Hester says:

    Magic seeds? Funniest thing I ever heard. Fucking morons

  35. Noah Jenks says:

    thank god joseph nicolosi is dead he was a monster .

  36. Dr Wrecker says:

    Hey all, Scott here!

  37. semira brenchley says:

    y’all really laughing at this. y’all love to celebrate homosexuals and their acts but you guys ignore the real pain and trauma they go through.

  38. biker says:

    is this a gay theater group, for boys taught by older gays ?

  39. Wendy Ackerman says:


  40. Marius Oster says:

    I just want to live a normal life. With a normal wife and normal kids and normal work.

  41. Madi Meyer says:

    9:01 this guy is just sad and delusional :/

  42. Rufio Johns says:

    while there are so many parts of this that made me genuinely laugh, this is seriously sad as fuck. I feel so bad for these dudes. They legit hate themselves. All because of twisted interpretations of fairy tale bullshit.

  43. PlushTuber101 PT says:

    They really thought they did something with this necklaces

  44. ItsJust TheFantes' says:

    Wait what?? The guy running this camp is a fruit cake n if ppl want to be gay r whatever it's their life n choice just leave them be n happy. One thing I hate in religious stuff n they are worried about everyone else n not themselves… just be happy n don't let anyone tell u what you should do w your life… if your happy in lifebyour winning period

  45. Acleeze says:

    my man over here saying everyone is heterosexual when i can see his head over his comb over.

  46. Eden Leave says:

    This is great people should have the choice to feel how they want it is so stupid of these rights groups to think something is wrong with this

    It’s done with perverts not socially acceptable and with gays who are socially acceptable

  47. Eric Joseph says:

    Everything they say is so gay.

  48. Maria Silva says:

    this is just summer camp for theatre gays

  49. NickEvershedMusic says:

    I came here from a terrible story on Reddit, the gay teens got HIV from being raped and abused at this camp

  50. Joseph McDonald says:

    sounds like a sexy ass weekend.

  51. Tapeworm says:

    To be honest that water slide and those lake floaties look fucking cool

  52. 92 skeet says:

    Christian men want to follow Gods word

  53. Saul Santos says:

    Just to clear up a very false notion that is commonly used in debates about sexuality. Hetrosexuality is not NATURAL. It is very well documented that homosexuality is expressed a lot in nature, specifically within mammals. Male elephants for example will do a lot of physical "bonding" amongst each other, even with younger males. It is seen in so many species that it even invalidates the whole "it's God's commandment" argument, because it also says in the bible that all of God's creations worship and obey his will. Little bit of a fallacy there. Im not even homsexual myself, I just don't like to hear invalid arguments being tossed around as if they're correct.

  54. Cj Wolf99 says:

    Bruh they got Lester from GTA V on here Boiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!

  55. Alexander Wallgren says:

    What I believe………………very profoundly………………………is the guy at 4:51 needs to jump up another 2 shirt sizes.

  56. Michael John Dennis says:

    As an older “out” gay man myself, I have over the years lived to regret coming out, not least because of the non-acceptance, judgemental attitudes, discrimination and prejudice that I have experienced from within the LGBT community and especially from other gay men because of my background and because I was raised an only child, because to them my being gay is (somehow) regarded by other gay men in particular as not real nor valid because of same – naturally, LGBT organisations who are pursuing a certain leftist political agenda will dismiss any concerns raised about these issues and will even resort to veiled personal attacks and insults against any potential challenge as to what they are doing to young people, seeing and regarding any such concerns about such issues as the big taboo for any discussion or debate and instead, will push ahead with thier hypocritical legally sanctioned indoctrination and brainwashing of innocent young kids in schools (where they have no proper professional educational qualifications to do so) into the gay lifestyle, encouraging these kids to come out, regardless of thier individual family situation and circumstances, often without the parents informed consent, against the parents traditional moral, religious and cultural beliefs and even without the parents knowledge, when they come out into hostile LGBT groups, LBBT community centres, gay pride events and the gay scene in general, that are made to look as if they are friendly and supportive but are anything but, leading children into an adult “gay” life filled with pain and heartache – I’d certainly go on one of these courses to cure me of being gay

  57. yumni says:

    a lot of people in the comments making jokes but I find this actually really sad. imagine living in an environment which forces you to internalise your sexuality and deludes you that you’re living the best life you can, when in actuality, you’re miserable 90% of the time and the other 10% is just you trying to convince yourself that the emotional and mental pressure you’re putting on yourself is good. i feel so bad for these men. i hope they make peace with themselves. nothing but love

  58. J Reyes says:

    This shit..is so GAY

  59. Kendra Jenson says:

    this camp is for confused bisexuals

  60. anonymous 0000 says:

    So if these people agree to go and this is what they want then what is the problem?

  61. Boodi Abed says:

    Therapy is a man holding a tree branch with a feather asking you "what is you biggest fear this weekend"
    I know this cause i am also mentally challenged

  62. Boodi Abed says:

    To all straight people who think sexuality can be changed, how about you try changing your sexuality? Now you understand why this is wrong?!

  63. Mair Lee says:

    13:26 yes there’s more depression it’s because people like you make us feel less than and try change us. I understand the value in the OPTION for people who WANT to become straight but for the people who are forced into it or are seeing this at a tender time in their journey it’s not ok

  64. Confetti Medic says:

    South park’s episode on this issue was amazing. If you tell a child they are confused, they will believe you.

  65. John Paul Descartin says:

    Where is the thumbnail? Please help me ladies and gays

  66. Peter Jensen says:

    i really believe that what these men want are sacks of seed, just not the ones you hang around your neck.

  67. h3rosoup • 12 years ago says:

    If you’re homophobic you’re gay

  68. Mark Lerner says:

    "I want to be a father so badly" Well, go adopt one!

  69. damian allen says:

    I want to go there just to be the gayest one there

  70. damian allen says:

    I can't lie the guy in the gray shirt sexy as fuck I would be tryin to hook up with him

  71. ; Toast ; says:

    Sending us gays together with other gays will make us straight? Preeeetty sure that would make us more gay ngl. 😂

  72. 区撃影kugeki kage says:

    It's mental abuse to humans

  73. calio cat says:

    “When you look at gay sex, very simply the parts don’t fit” Do they know that penetration isn’t the only way to have sex? And 75% of women can’t get orgasm through just penetration…I feel bad for your wifes D: Do they know that lesbians out of women have the most orgasms? XD

  74. calio cat says:

    “The gay world is very much into one night stands” HAHA! Lesbians move in after two weeks of dating XD

  75. Google User says:

    "converted"? That's an interesting way to say and spell "repressed".

  76. *Good Vibes* says:

    Hold up I think I went here without being told it was a gay conversion camp wtf

  77. NeroThe SpookyCat says:

    So you are gay washing people you can convert gay people to hetero people which is great putting them on the straight path again

  78. Casey Michel says:

    There is so much gay sex happening in that place

  79. Comrade Catu says:

    What's manlyer than one man tho? Two men

  80. Augusta Anderson says:

    I went to summer camp here as a kid

  81. Jeff Brunecz says:

    This is just stupid. NO one can FORCE you to go to these places. You ALWAYS have a choice.

  82. power2theppl 89 says:

    Yeah cuz a bunch of dudes in a camp in the woods putting together a play full of phallic metaphors is not gay at all….. Jesus!!! I had a social work professor that previously worked at one of these "therapy camps" and he was a real douche that I wanted to punch in his stupid Mormon face at all times

  83. Cheeto Nips says:

    Pray the gay away counselors, AKA self loathing homophobic homosexuals

  84. Cheeto Nips says:

    How can one live knowing one “helps” people out of their sexuality instead of helping them be comfortable and happy being themselves?

  85. RWM Mendez says:

    They’re so lost. It’s sad.

  86. Audrey Bertelson says:

    You can tell this is legit because of the feather sticks, seed pouches, and the Jack and the beanstalk play. Obviously, this camp is the place to be.

  87. ClubPenguinEmisina says:

    Hate me, but I like with the fact that one of the men talked about how this was optional and they weren’t trying to force other people not to be homosexual, just the people who wanted it.

  88. Crusti says:

    that’s disgusting.

  89. Cristian Santos says:

    Conversion leader guy: trying to hide his true gay identity, can't find something.

    Solution: start a gay conversion camp where there's a lot of gay men, big bean stalks, and theater…

  90. Rich SJ says:

    Ohh please, the gay vibe on the professor is so overflowing.

  91. Campbell Soup says:

    Absolutely heartbreaking no one deserves to live like this

  92. Phillip Maloba says:

    11:27 that may be the saddest thing I've ever heard

  93. ilemraz S. says:

    i think its more wrong to pretend to not be yourself than expressing who you really are

  94. Red Borja says:

    I am gay, and 17

    When that co-founder said, "alot of same sex attraction has a hight percentage of men who where molested. Because I was molested by 2 older men at school when I was 10 y

    It had me re-think, but I'm still 17 and still fighting thru my gender crisi.☺️

  95. Steele Platt says:

    Today I have: people I love, a church I love, a god I love…but no wife I love because I still can't force myself to be physically attracted to women.

  96. RainyDay 2723 says:

    When u bi so it works and doesn’t work

  97. The FiReBlAsTeR L0L says:

    Kids in elementary: ewwww that’s gay

  98. Lil butthead says:

    If I was a gay man I'd love to go to this camp

  99. Lil butthead says:

    You CAN be a husband and a father and gay. Marry a man baby

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